Ya'll, I'm going crazy. The past three weeks have been a HUGE blessing. I can't even describe how much my heart has been touched and moved by the promises the Lord keeps. AND there is so much coming up that I am super excited for. Let me fill you in...

About three weeks ago, I was frustrated and so upset with myself. Things weren't going as planned, I didn't feel like I was really doing as well as I could in my classes because I was just being lazy. I really, really was not representing God well and being a faithful servant to Him. I kept getting more and more upset about it and it was really tugging on my heart to change some things. My flesh really didn't want to deep down, but I knew that the Father was telling me that I have so much potential and that He believed in me. So, that's what got me going.

I decided to do my homework the day I get it and always be on top of things. I planned on going to bed early, waking up on time (and having time to eat breakfast), spend intentional time with the Lord everyday, etc. And for the past three weeks it's gone great! It has been exactly that (more or less - we all have our slip-ups). I have never felt more motivated and more ready to plow through things than now. He is so good. Friends, I have been praying for motivation for a good year now and I finally feel like I know what that means. Although it takes practice, I am learning to kneed my heart into leaving behind my old ways and becoming more responsible and a more diligent child of God. And just because you're motivated one day does not mean you will feel that way the next. But it does mean that the more you rely on God to fill your cup everyday and make you whole just to glorify Him, you will succeed. God will bless you in ways you cannot imagine.

I am excited about this. I'm excited to see what's going to happen and how the Lord will grow me closer to Him.

In other news.....
THERE'S ONLY 16 MORE DAYS OF SCHOOL LEFT FOR ME. My Freshman Year of college is slowly coming to an end. Definitely bittersweet. I cannot believe it. Gosh, just looking back and seeing how the whole time the Father help me in His hands and took care of me. I cannot get over how crazy of a year it's been, truly. From being a shaking-in-her-boots, I-don't-wanna-grow-up, will-do-anything-to-stay-in-high-school senior at Dixie this time last year, I can't explain how much my heart has been changed. I was scared to death of college. I mean it. Scared. To. Death. I loved Dixie and I loved my friends and I loved Young Life there. More importantly, though, I did not want to leave my mom. I didn't want to be away from here. I wanted to spend every precious moment possible with her as I could. But I knew God had put it on my heart to have a desire to go to UK. To get comfortable being uncomfortable. To be alone sometimes, but to find myself. That's what I needed and His plan was definitely better than I expected. I've found community, I've found sweet friends, I've found so many great things on campus and I am able to see the work of the Lord in all of them. I cherish my family so much more because of what we went through this year and that I don't see them as much, so I appreciate them that much more. I feel like my heart is being softened to love others more. I am different, but better person because of this Freshman Year of college. And I am thankful for that.

And on to bigger and better things....
There are so many little things that I am so excited for that are coming up pretty soon. Lemme just tell ya:

1. Chicago: I'm going to Chicago this weekend for a leader training called Gynoskow. I am seriously so excited. I've never been to Chicago before and we're gonna take pictures with the bean! I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO TAKE PICTURES WITH THE BEAN! Also, I get to spend my time there with some pretty cool cats that I've wanted to get to know! :)
2. Needtobreathe: My whole leader team is heading to Louisville next Thursday for the Needtobreathe concert! I cannot explain to you how excited I am to spend that night loving Jesus with them. Just another opportunity to bond and get to know each other better!
3. Taylor Swift: YESSIR I AM GOING TO THE TAYLOR SWIFT CONCERT. Wow. I am too excited. In two weekends, I will be seeing my favorite artist since 7th or 8th grade perform live. Ya'll this has been my dream for a while now! And I'm going with my sweet, sweet friend, Katelyn, who I've known since 2nd grade. She goes to Xavier now and we hardly ever see each other, so I am excited to catch up with her!! :)
4. Last Day of School: May 3rd is creeping in on me! It is the last day of my freshman year. My last exam for the year is that day! I am so joyful. Wow, it's gone by so quick. I still remember moving in like it was yesterday. SUMMER IS NEAR :)
5. Leader Weekend: This isn't for a little while, but man, oh man, am I pumped!! Going to camp with close friends that are leaders in Lexington, Northern Kentucky, AND Louisville?!! It's seriously going to be the greatest weekend ever! 42 DAYS!

That's just about all that's going on right now, but I just thought I'd share with you things in the past that I'm really excited about and things in the future that I'm really excited about and how those things are making me excited in the present! I love looking back and looking forward to see what God's done. And lately I've just been hit hard.

"Because you are his sons, God sent the Spirit of his Son into our hearts, the Spirit who calls out, “Abba, Father.” So you are no longer a slave, but God’s child; and since you are his child, God has made you also an heir." - Galatians 4:6-7.


I am kneading my heart for the Bread of Life.

{per·se·ver·ance}

Definiton:

1. Steadfastness in doing something despite difficulty or delay in achieving success.
2. Continuance in a state of grace leading finally to a state of glory.

I think this is the most perfect word to describe fighting for your faith with Jesus. No matter what happens, you never give up on Him because He never gave up on you.

 

Just look at the second definition. Continuance in a state of grace leading finally to a state of glory. Ya'll this is what loving Jesus is all about. Jesus persevered and now as received glory from the Father. He took all of our weaknesses and all of our sin upon Himself so that we could be one with the Father someday.

 

God made Him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in Him we might become the righteousness of God. - 2 Corinthians 5:21.
 

Jesus became sin for us. For you. For me. For every baby that isn't born yet. For our great great grandparents. For EVERYONE. For each heart that was created to desire a relationship and to be loved by its Creator. That is all of us.

So what are we to do when the going gets tough? Well, it's easier said than done, but keep on trucking. Stick beside the one real thing that you know and that's the Lord. People change, situations change, we change, places change, the timing's not right, etc. But the one thing that will be consistent in our lives forever is the love of our beautiful Savior and how He views us. He loves us unconditionally. Those of you that don't know that, you're in store for a wonderful suprise. God doesn't ever look at you and say, "You disgust me", "You are not worthy", "You're ugly", "You're a failure at life", "You'll never make it anywhere in life", "You're one big disappointment". Instead, it is the total opposite! The Father looks at His obedient children and says, "You've been made clean!", "You are worthy of my love!", "You are the most beautiful thing I have ever seen!", "You have so much going for you and you will succeed!", "I am proud of you!". He loves us, friends. Imagine a friend of yours that has the biggest heart out there. They love with no end. They give their life up. They are fair and consistent. They don't walk in and out of your life like it doesn't matter. That is our precious Father times infinity! We cannot even fathom how wonderful our Creator is. His love for us is beautiful. His love "never fails, it never gives up, it never runs out" on us.

But so many times we don't believe it. At least I know I don't. I think that I have so many expectations I have to meet in order to be right in the eyes of God. All those things above that God doesn't say to you are exactly all the things I have caught Satan filling my mind with the past month since I have been placed as a Young Life leader. Not only has Satan been filling my mind with these things, but I have been listening to these things and believing them!! That is where what I have been learning lately comes in...

Over Spring Break, UK College Life went to Panama City Beach in Florida to spend the week together. Oh goodness, how great it was to relax. It was great to just have a glimpse of what eternal rest with the Lord is going to be like. But the best and sweetest part about all of it was coming to my senses and realizing what was going on inside of me. We read a book that week that talked about having a cross-centered life. There was specifically one chapter that really hit home in my heart. It talked about how we need to learn to talk to ourselves rather than listen to ourselves. This is because when we talk to ourselves, we are able to get things straight and see where things are going wrong. We have control. But when we are just listening to ourselves - to our own thoughts - Satan is able to control those thoughts and turn them into lies. Lately, Satan has just been feeding me those lies and has made me feel so small. He has made me think that I am unable to be a great Young Life leader and that the Lord won't help me. I have felt ugly and dumb (which all girls feel at some point) and that I have no friends. I have felt as though there is something big wrong with me because I haven't met that many girls at Tates Creek and built real relationships there yet. He has made me believe that God doesn't want me to do this and thinks I just suck at life.

I feel like many times Christians are viewed as having this perfect little life and that they don't struggle with anything. My, oh, my is that wrong. Let me tell you something... I struggle. I am the driver of the struggle bus! There are so many things that are going on in my life that I can't think straight. I carry so much baggage. I have junk. Lots of it. But at the end of the day, I am reminded, though, that I can unload alllllll that baggage, all that junk, and all those struggles onto Jesus. That's why He died on the cross. He took all our junk and all our sins on Him so that we could be seen as pure, clean, spotless children of God. This has made us righteous! We have been redeemed! We don't have to live with that anymore.

I know for dang sure that those thoughts don't go away with the drop of a hat. I have to talk to myself and remind myself that I am a beautiful daughter of the King and that I am perfect in His eyes. I know I need to tough it out and persevere so that I am led to a final state of glory. That state of glory is rewarded to the runners that run the race wholeheartedly and without stopping. With steadfastness. Despite difficulty or delay. That is the way of being right in the eyes of God. God throws struggles at you too to test your heart. I am learning patience from all of this. I know that it's not going to be easy come, easy go with leading. And with the other new leaders that I compare myself to, God is showing me that Tates Creek is completely different than every school. All of them are different. I am in a completely different situation. All of us are going to struggle. It's whether or not we fight back that matters. When we do fight back, that is when God is pleased. And God throws so much grace at us when these things happen. When we listen to Satan and His lies, that's when He is disgusted. He hates our sin, not us. He loves us and redeems us every time we turn away.

I am so thankful for that. A God who sees me and thinks I'm beautiful and deserving of this when I am actually a filthy rag and turn away from Him so often. Gosh, He is so good.

One of my favorite verses that my old Young Life leader showed me a while back that yanks on my heart's strings (now more than ever) is:

"So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised." - Hebrew 10:35-36.
 

God has a plan for our lives. When we let Him take control of that plan rather than Satan or even ourselves, we will receive what He has promised.

So, it looks like Casey's got a lot of waiting on the Lord to do. And a lot of praying. And a lot of talking to herself rather than listening. Hopefully I don't look like a crazy person. :)


Here's a song by Building 429 that has really hit home. I heard it on the radio yesterday when I had a meltdown about all of this. It's really great. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pgFHG4rDKqw

One more thing that I just love is something I read from a bible study leader's  (Angie Poston) blog recently. It's a simple quote but so true and something I've really been realizing:

"It's hard to know the condition of your heart until you experience the healing you never knew you needed."

 

Continue forward in the Lord's state of grace to share in His eternal state of glory with obedience and perseverance.

Father of Love, You can have me!

Is there anything that you're just so passionate about that you get giddy just thinking about it? Yep, that's me with Young Life. I went to Rockbridge for camp the summer after my Freshman year of high school in 2009 and there was no turning back from there. I surrendered my whole being to Jesus Christ as my Savior. Is what the most freeing and refreshing moment ever. And little did I know that it wasn't just going to be for a moment. It was going to be a freedom that carried on for the rest of my life. Also, I didn't really know what it meant to have a relationship with Christ until learning more and more about Him from that point on. I didn't realize the power and love that our Lord has for His children. But this realization really became more real this year. Yes, I have been faced with a multitude of trials and blessings, but the one I want to focus on right now is what has been an ongoing blessing since the very first week of college. This blessing is my Young Life/College Life community here in
Lexington.

College Life on Halloween!

Being together 1 day a week for College Life quickly turned into 2 days a week when we began leader training which quickly turned into spending time with one another everyday as we became a family and community together. These people are seriously the greatest. There is just something about this group that has my heart. I love each and every one of them so dearly and I am so thankful the Lord has put each one of them in my life. We worship together, we pray together, we go to church together, we eat lunch together, we watch movies together, we share our life stories together, and most of all, we love one another. These people are too good to me. My God is too good to me. How blessed is our Great Deliverer!

After a few months or so of getting to know one another and going through leader training together, it came down to crunch week. It was the week of placement. Sunday was our last leader training, Monday was when we had our interviews, Wednesday was College Life, Thursday all the guys in leader training took all the girls in leader training out to dinner for Valentine's Day (sooo sweet!), and Friday was the placement party! I had a BIG week ahead of me! But hey, I got through it!

Valentine's Day Dinner at Ramsey's! (I'm not in this picture; we left early!)

And guess what!

 

CASEY IS NOW A YOUNG LIFE LEADER AT TATES CREEK HIGH SCHOOL

 

 

 

Sorry for so much beating around the bush, but I wanted to build the suspense! :)

 



The new leaders of Tates Creek at placement!



Ya'll the Lord has been so faithful to me. I cannot even fathom it. I am just so thankful that He found me and met me where I was and He gives me this opportunity (when I for sure don't deserve it) to share Christ with high school students. He could so easily do it all on His own, but He invites us in to share this with Him! How great is He?! He gives our lives worth and provides a love for us that will not fade.




My new co-leader, Emily Jones! :) The 2 new girl leaders!

I am so excited to just run alongside my Creator by taking part in a ministry that was such a great tool in my life that helped me come to know the Lord. Now, I have the privledge of helping other kids like me (and unlike me!) come to know the Lord. WOW! What. A. Huge. Blessing. Thankful for all of those who have supported me through the years and continue to back me up as I begin this new journey with my Father from a different perspective. SO EXCITED :)

Music Reaches the Soul

Music does wonders, plain and simple. It can be any genre and it makes you feel something inside of you that just makes you feel like you are completely expressing yourself. It's so freeing and fun. Lyrics can describe exactly what you're going through or hit too close to home. They can be just what you needed to hear. Music is a wonderful gift that the Lord has presented us with. It's one of my favorite things, without a doubt.

Songs have the ability to make you cry, jump for joy, smile, praise, and just feel awesome. It's amazing. For me, I really enjoy all genres of music. One that reaches down in my soul and makes me feel the most alive, though, is worship music. There's just something about crying out the Father and that you are in total presence of the Lord. Joy. Utter joy. There's just a connection to our Father that you feel like is closer to Him than just praying. There's just something about worship music, man.

One of my all-time favorite worship songs is Forever Reign by Hillsong. I've just always loved it for some reason. Now, it has much more of a significance to me. It holds a very special place in my heart.

When I found out that the doctor's couldn't do anything else for my mom, I was in class. I vividly remember this. I went to the bathroom, came back, looked at my phone, then went back in the hallway because I received a call from my dad and a text from my brother saying, "Family meeting tonight back at home at 6". I immediately called my dad asking him what was going on. At this point, my mom had been at UK hospital for about a week and a half. My dad explained to me on the phone that there was nothing else that the doctor's could do for my mom and that the family had to make the choice of whether or not to keep her on oxygen for more time while she just stays in the hospital struggling and we just wait for her to pass or if we should take her off of everything and let her pass peacefully while everyone was there. My dad told me all of this over the phone. I started bawling. There was nothing I could do. I had no control over the situation. I went to the bathroom and wiped my eyes and headed back into my class. We were watching a video, but that definitely was not where my focus was. I knew I wasn't going to be able to watch the video or even do anything in class without crying. So I wrote. I wrote all my feelings and fears and prayers to the Lord. This helped more than I could ever imagine.

After class, I went back to my dorm where Grace was. I explained to her everything that was going on and bawled my eyes out, of course (I hate crying in front of people). Then, I went to the bathroom, was in the bathroom stall and just cried and prayed. Out of no where, absolutely no where, Forever Reign came to my head. It wasn't like I had just listened to it beforehand or anything. No, I hadn't heard it in weeks. How it came to my head, I have no idea. Wait, I know how, IT WAS ALL MY LOVING SAVIOR. Every single bit. And the part that came to my mind specifically was,

"Oh, I'm runnin' to Your arms, I'm runnin' to Your arms. The riches of You Love will always be enough. Nothing compares to Your embrace. Light of the World, forever reign."
 

I just kept singing those lyrics over and over and over again in my head. There was nothing I could do in this situation. Nothing. But the everlasting love of my Heavenly Father reminded me through these lyrics that I needed to trust in Him. Nothing compares to His embrace. His love is enough and will protect you and walk with you through the hardest days of your life. His Spirit dwells inside of you and is unleashed to the extreme when the water's get too high to handle. He carries you on His wings. He protects. He comforts. He loves. He got me through the biggest thing in my life. And a part of that came with Him putting a song on my heart.

And guess what! That song was played at church and leadership the weekend after she had passed. Coincidence? I think not. Just the Lord reminding me each day that He is there for me. How great! And guess what else! I start crying every time I hear it. In church, at leadership, in my dorm, everywhere!! EVERYWHERE! I don't even care about crying in front of people anymore. It's is good for the soul to sing it and cry out to Him! He is good!

I am so blessed to have a God that is bigger than ALL my fears and struggles. A God who make life worth living and allows us to have no fear in death. I miss my mom an awful lot. Her laugh, her jokes, her smile, her HUGS. Everything. But just knowing that she is resting with the Lord - her wonderful Maker - right now overwhelms my soul. It is so reassuring to know that. She is still here with me. In all I do she is here. I love her so much. Tomorrow marks 5 months without her. It seems like forever. She was such a light to everyone and I am so thankful for the Lord giving me her. I miss you, Mommy. Tell Jesus I said hi! :)

 

Nervous.

I'm just freaking out a little. I need to get my priorities straight. I have had no motivation lately for anything. Homework is such a struggle for me to do anymore and I just always result to wanting to miss class (but I don't) and feeling sorry for myself. And we all know how it ends, at least for me - crying. Casey cries when she's stressed out. Well, if you thought I only cry when I'm stressed out, man, did I fool you? I need to get a grip on this whole college thing. No more excuses for homework. I have so much time to do it with work and everything. Gosh, sometimes I get so mad at myself. I am not glorifying Jesus through these tasks He has put in front of me. College is a place for preparing yourself for a career in the future that you will use to glorify and represent Him. If we are not well prepared for this career, then we won't be representing Jesus well. I need to remind myself of that. I can just get so unmotivated. And I HATE it. Just a little bit of a venting post.

Lord, give me the strength and power that you had to push through. Help me to seek You more and represent You well through my diligence and obedience in the work you have put before me. Motivate my heart and "set a fire down in my soul". Give me this passion to work for You wholeheartedly, Lord. That's what we were made to do, Lord. Remind me of Your promises for me. That when I am discouraged with procrastination, that You let me know that none of this matters once Your Kingdom comes, God. But let me also remember that You Kingdom isn't here yet, so I still need to persevere and work for You, Father. Give my heart the passion to follow You, Lord.

Give me faith to trust what You say.

Man, second blog. The pressure's starting. Hahaha, just kidding. The past two days just have been full of God's love, though. I don't know how, but I have been full of joy. Seriously like pure joy. It's ridiculous!! It's all the little things that I keep noticing. I feel like so many times, it's so easy to see how the Lord works in our lives through huge miracles and sparing a person's life and things to that nature. It's things like that when everyone sees God's handiwork. But what about through prayers of "little" things. The past to days, I have literally gone to bed super late and I simply prayed for the Lord to refresh my soul and to live in happiness in His presence for the day. I hate days where I feel like a complete slob and I complain about literally everything. I just feel like complete crap and not like I am representing Jesus well when I have days when I'm in a bad mood. But Tuesday was seriously such a beautiful day. The weather, the sunshine, the things I was doing, the coffee (gosh I love my coffee), and just everything seemed great. I was supposed to go to Henry Clay High School's club that night too, so I was super excited. My day was going great. I was able to dive into scripture during work, which really makes my day sooooo much better. I am currently reading John for bible study and I just read John 13 and 14 in a way I have never read it before. Just realizing how humble Jesus was in these chapters and how he knew all along what His death was going to come down to. It shows how the Lord comforted his disciples and all of His promises for us. It was perfect for what I am struggling with right now. I am just nervous, yet excited, about leading and what the Lord has in store for my future with it. I just constantly think about students not liking me and how hard it will be, but I was slapped in the face by scripture...

"I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these because I am going to the Father." - John 14:12.
 

What an awesome reminder!!! It is so great being reminded that the Lord came down from Heaven - yes, HEAVEN - to save us because we have turned from Him, but yet allows us to do His work?! He gives us the opportunity of a lifetime and lets US be a part of this when He can do it alllllll by Himself. Wow!! He reassures me that I will do great things if I have faith in Him. Gosh, what a motivation!

On Saturday night, a handful of people from College Life went to a night of worship put on by some CSF (Christian Student Fellowship) students (which was absolutely amazing). While we were there, a guy named Pastor Tim was there to pray with people. At first, I will say, I was a little freaked out by this whole shabang, but I decided to have Pastor Tim pray for me. I went with my friend Brittany and everything that came out of that man's mouth was purely the Holy Spirit speaking through him.... it was crazy!! He prayed for self-doubt for me, which seriously hit home. It was exactly what I needed. He said that I would impact so many people while I was in college and that I wouldn't be discouraged.

To say the least, I was utterly amazed afterwards. He hit the nail on the head. No, the Holy Spirit hit the nail on the head. I have been so afraid lately of what lies ahead of me. But I was reassured! Just looking at what I've been reading lately and how it has been applying to my life is eye-opening. It's awesome seeing that if we have faith in the Lord, He will have faith in us to work alongside Him. He believes in me when I don't even believe in myself. He demonstrates being bold and defending my faith. He shows us how to love wholeheartedly, which I what I hope to show some of my girls in the future. I just can't wait to lead and trusting completely on the Lord to provide and protect me. It's just good for the soul.

By ending, I want to share my most recent favorite worship song that we've been singing at leadership and College Life. It's just been super relative and it explains the cry of my heart right now. Please listen! :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P8PLBQrzWQ8&noredirect=1

I think from now on I'm going to end with a prayer because it just ends these things perfectly.

Father God, let your glory reach every nation. Let it be known the grace and redemption of your love, Lord. I thank You so much for the past couple of days that I have felt Your presence and I have been just completely filled with joy. Lord, I pray that I am constantly reminded of You and Your faith in me. When the world says no, You say go. I am so excited to a follower of the King by being a leader of the disinterested. I pray for a leap of faith into the unknown and you grace my lips with love for my future conversations with these students. I pray that I can continue to see how You have been shaping my life and growing me to love you more. Thank you for putting in a heart of flesh that was made to love You and taking out my heart of stone that rejected you. I pray that when given the opportunity, I choose to let you into my life. Break my heart for what breaks yours. It's in Your Name I pray.

 

 

 

 

 

Just in awe.

Can't even come close to describing how the Lord has been working in me lately. It's just so great to see what He is doing in my life and how His loves covers the depths of my life. It's seriously amazing. I don't have the best writing ability at all, but I just wanted to keep kind of an online journal of how the Lord is impacting my life in Lexington when I never thought He would. Here's a little rewind into my life:

I went to Dixie Heights all through high school. Through being a part of Young Life and going to Rockbridge for summer camp the summer after my freshman year, I made the greatest decision I have ever made - to respond to Christ's offer and surrender my heart and soul to Him.

Summer Camp at Rockbridge 2009.

Since then, it's been a crazy, yet awesome journey. He has brought me closer and closer to Him these past 3 and a half years and I cannot fathom how.


On September 8th, 2012, I lost my mother. She was the greatest influence of love in my life. She had been having heart problems since April 2011 and being in and out of the hospital in between. Yes, it definitely is hard going into your first semester of your freshman year of college (already stressed and scared from the start) with your mom passing away the second week of school. It was a very tough thing to deal with, but the Lord carried me without growing weak.



Mom and I at a Christmas party in 2011. My last Christmas with her.

Now, I am still at the University of Kentucky as a Spanish major just trying to grow each and every day with the Lord by my side and teaching me to trust in Him with every decision and move I make.

I am currently in training down here to be a Young Life leader, which is really humbling me and making me desire the Lord more and more. It's awesome. I get placed on February 15th. Wow, I am really excited. It's just crazy to think that a year ago at this time, I was just deciding I wanted to go to UK. When I visited UK, I hated it. I almost went to Louisville (brb, crying inside)!! But being down here in Lexington, I am slowly but surely realizing that this is where the Lord wants me to be. I am challenged here and that is what I needed. I am beginning to have a heart for Lexington. Gosh, that is crazy. I just can't wait to see how the Lord will use me in students' lives either at a middle school or a high school. But for now, I have an awesome, encouraging community that I can fall back on that I am SO thankful for. Each and every one of them are so great.

First UK football game with my new Lexington friends.

As I finish my lengthy, but first, blog post, I would like to pray for this blog and what I hope to accomplish with it...

Lord, open my eyes to new things. Open give me Your arms to every student that I will come in contact with once I am placed. I just pray for a big heart that desires more of You, Lord, and to be more like You, Lord. Father, I pray that this blog isn't used for pointless things that I use to avoid homework. I pray that it is used to bring You and only You glory. I pray that it allows me to reflect on how You're changing my life, Lord. No matter how prone I am to wander, Father, I pray that I am reminded that You are the same forever and Your love is never ending. I pray "I fall so deeply in love with Your name, Jesus, that I forget my own", Lord. Lord, thank You for the cross and reminding me of Your love and that I have something better to look forward to as hope everyday. Thank You for the Cross, Father. It's in Your Name I pray.